Full disclosure

As I said, processed foods that are in our house are fair game. I also said that I have become addicted to chocolate chips. Well apparently any sugar works.

We have this shelf, one of the kitchen's highest, where we keep ingredients for special occasions like sugars and sprinkles. You know, things to make treats for birthdays and stuff. Or, this afternoon.

I was sitting on the couch and hungry. When I'm really hungry, my brain does not think to eat an apple or carrot or something healthy like that. No, it thinks and thinks and thinks until I figure out something in this house with sugar that I can eat. NOW.

And so, just now nursing Levi, I recalled that I made a very simple icing with powdered sugar once and - WAIT! - I still had some of that powdered sugar on the top shelf. My quick googling fingers found a recipe for buttercream icing and sure enough, the ingredients were: butter, powdered sugar, milk, and vanilla (but I skipped that).

It just so happens we had about a half-cup of almond milk left in the fridge, an almost-new tub of Earth's Best* in there as well, and yes, that powdered sugar. My sugar-craving mind was so in it that I threw the ingredients in a bowl and mixed it up using a (loud) hand mixer while my daughter was sleeping (and she doesn't nap easily) and then ate the creamy goodness, with a spoon, in a matter of minutes.

Ugh. Fail.

I know it's not technically a fail, because it is in the rules that we are allowed to eat stuff that's in the house. But, I was feeling SO WELL not having sugar for a few days. I had just told Travis (and all of my FB friends) that a few hours earlier. So the fact that I succumbed to my sugar cravings when I knew better kind of pisses me off.

So there you have it. I am not perfect and this challenge will not go perfectly. But, part of sharing our journey is sharing the ups and the downs, the good and the bad, the successes and the failures.

And sorry, no pictures of the icing for this post. I ate it too fast.

*Earth's Best, for those of you who don't know, is a soy- and dairy-free vegetable oil spread that looks, acts, and tastes like butter.